HOI

woah. 5 weeks in ns have come and gone soo quickly. in a blink of an eye i have passed the halfway mark of my bmt. questions bobbing in my head right now: to be or not to be? a commander that is. i really don't know what to make of my life in ns. there are some moments - like building and tearing down freaking basha tents, and digging the perfect shell-scrape against the resistance of monstrous tree roots and unbreakable rocks - that i would rather not have gone through. but theres always the saying that whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. i am still pondering the validity of that statement but i guess for now i must agree in a sense. at least [after going through all of this] i can be said to be more than a nerdy mugger.

bah! looking at the calender - i see things that i fear and anticipate. sit test-soc-more bcct-a level results!-the 24k route march-and then another cycle of (perhaps even more) gruelling training depending on my posting. i cant imagine how much of my life actually depends on this posting. i need to decide. and maybe pray. that whatever i get, i can deal with it and do well in it.

bah.

anyway, have a happy holiday to whoever's reading this. gongxifacai! wanshiruyi! shentijiankang! gongzhuoshunli! haiyou xueyejinbu for those getting back their a level results! Whatever happens, life still goes on. so don't worry, be happy!

what a corny post.

=)